I hate this feelings!!!!

Today...im going to angsana..

Well he want to buy something at there..

I really dnt feel want to went there..

I feel hate and arrggghhh...

Nak tak nak..need to..

Well, both of us too hungry..and we went to McDonald..

Well2...i saw those people which make my feelings uggghhh!!!

 And well...the one which need to work didnt work today for her last day..

Oh ya!! Well maybe she have to replace me ..

so dats why..she didnt have to work today..

so how bout me before..

which have to work for 3 weeks but never mention anything to them

why its being unfair to both of us..

if they said im so lazy and not good work..

come on...i always make my best to do..

and my work always finish right away ..

mistake??hellooo...all people always make mistake..

dnt tell me that all of you never ever make mistake ...

dnt be stupid..

holiday..skip of work..

come on..never do that..

even i want to replace people or had something that need me to skip..

they always never ever trust me..

and their mind always said dat im going to meet my boy..

hello...how about her that want to meet her fiancee..

and when i want to be with my family..

for something dat all of you never understand or been in my place..

i never skip my work.. never except urgently..

For my last week of work... there are 3 days im on leave,,,

why??because i had 5 days leave(5 hari cuti yg aku tak dapat habiskan)

why i cant take those leave if i want...

and why all of you want to complaint and said im making excuses ..

what ever im doing...im doing excellent for my work before..

what is wrong with  them??

i never felt this hate before..

i dnt want any grudge..but i felt so sad and how could those people do that to me..

today are suppose the last day for her..

but she didnt work..sm1 else work..

and dats make me wondering ..

if they said she had to replace me before..

hello..i have work for 3 weeks before and need to work for my last day..

and why not her..doing that also..

how stupid and unfair of people..especially malay people...

why all of you being unfair to me..

ape yg dah aku buat smpai korang benci kan aku sgt2...

sepanjang aku bekerja..aku tidak memberikan mslh pd korang...

sepanjang aku jaaga booth..seinci pun aku tidak bergerak dr tmpt korang..

tp korang ..yeah i know u r senior..whatever u do..we never said anything...

but what ever i do...jadi bahan dan pengutukan bg mereka..

and everything i done is wrong..

even time rehat yg sepatutnya time aku balik keje utk rehat..

klu nk suh aku duduk c2 dr pg smpai petang..

mane waktu rehat aku..even tmpt tu berbayar..suppose 1 jam rehat ade kan..

kenapa???kenapa???semua salah aku????kenapa???

Yanan nk tanya kak why balik..kenapa semua jadi salah yana ??

did im look  stupid to u....hey!! semua manusia itu sama ..

jangan sampai kembali semula pada korang semua!!

sebagai budak praktikal..im suppose to be cooperate with all of you..help all of you..

but seems im like SOH CHAI..to u!!

aku tak berdendam tapi aku cukup kesal sebab menjadi  kawan pada orang yg tidak menghargainya...menganggap aku manusia paling bodoh dan senang dipermainkan!!!

mungkin itu aku yang dulu...tp aku takkan patah baalik pada tempat yang sepatutnya..

Terima kasih untuk semua ini !!!

To whoever

I know im wrong
i know im not a good persosn
but how could all of u treat me like this..

Last day, 20th i realize that im not so important to all of your heart..
when none of you felt sad when im gone..
maybe i didnt contribute anything to all of you..
not even money because of my condition
and none of you could understand my situation because all of you are not me..

Someone that i close to..
going anywhere with all of you..
eat, chat, jokes and even sad..
but those people dnt even sad and nothing expression on all of your face on my last day..
kak mar..seems so busy ..
ili, just smile and hurry go ....
siti just smile..
kak why...doesnt feel anything ..just said.."alah bukan ko tak campur dgn kiteorg lg"
how about if 2moro i die even i know i still lack iman and pahala in me..
but did all of you regret...
kak ain seems appreciate me..
kak maya and fad also even im not always hanging out with them..
but why those people felt that way but not people that i close to..
i felt sick to all of you..
i dnt knw is it rite after this that i hang out with all of you 2..
i thought maybe im too emo for everything but i think...
other people dnt seem so..
please dnt do like this to others after me...
Love you guys even you r not..
thanz coz being my fren...

SAD ENTRY RITE,,
there are so many story but i dnt want to write..
coz my head going to explode now..

Apis..is not here rite now..

something urgently about his work which he need to go to mersing..

and i had nobody to cry on..'

Please going back rite now..

I need you!!